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Welcome back to Curtin everyone!…it’s good to see all the new faces…as well as the old ones…hopefully we gonna have a really blast semester this time…for sure, i cant wait for dramas =P

talk about studies, i’m taking 5 unit this semester…they are EFDP, EDSF, Programming, Math 140 and Electrical System…really tough units i have there…cant wait to be busy and dizzy =)…what really gets to my nerves is my Geology 1st year 2nd semester friends only have 2 UNITS!…WTF!…so honeymoon semester for them!…I wish i have a semester like them…

i miss my work friends and work place!…really miss having them around and brighten up my days =)

i get complain by readers who read my blog, saying that my blog is long!…hmmm…i try to make things short and sweet this time…but, i just cant help it sometimes =P

1 thing for sure, i cant never rule my life without guys…sweetheart is right…i just need a time for myself instead of thinking about all my guys…one of my best friend is a guy…i’m so glad to have you back, darling…i know i feel secure when he’s around =)

i was thinking about writting more but i guess it’s enough for the 1st entry of school time 2008 semester 2….

till next entry…

hillie 1203 =)

hye all..wat’s up?..2 more days to go b4 my ass touch down in Myy…havent pack my bag yet…i dont even know wat i wanna bring back home…the must bring will be my laptop, passport, wallet…a bit of my cloth of coz…haih, i hv da feeling of sadness plak suddenly…for sure coz i will nvr see my cayunk n mi novio for the last time…huhu…mi novio too busy, as well as cayunk…hope will meet them on june =)

today, i got inspired to write blog…juz sumthing dat i wanna share wit u guys…basically its abt life…n the path dat u choose…

last 2 week, there was this 1 gurl yg keje at my place got married…congratulations…eventhough they are not so ‘match made in heaven’, dah jodoh kan…but, wat makes me wanna write abt it is the gurl age…she is juz 19 YEARS OLD…FUCKING 19 YEARS OLD!…and her guy is around 30 SUMTHING AGE…u got wat i mean?…she’s so beautiful gurl but end up marrying sum1 dat really old for her…its not dat i wanna kutuk or sumthing…but…consider dis, she’s juz 19 but already married…i mean, how come dat u really know u r ready to be a mom when u juz finish high school?..FOR SURE, I DONT…come on, she’s 19 n happily married compared to me, 20, single n still killing my brain to count how many trusses dat i should used to replicate another KLCC!

I juz cant imagine dat next year she’s going to have a baby…GOD!…wat happen to da world today?…its not like i against married at young age…i dont…my mom got married when she was 22 n my dad was 23…n i’m so proud of having them as my parent…but, wat’s killing me is teenager rite now making so easy desicion…when u fall in love, too much n cant resist…juz get married…i know, according to Islamic Laws of Marriage, it is WAJIB to get married if u r so horny…but, why cant u consider the consequences aftr the marriage…u gonna have babies…people like now love to have big family…beranak bnyk2…mcm pompuan ni kilang buat anak je…aftr dat, ur babies gonna grow up n going to school…

people nowdays dont really consider the children performance during their school days…asl pegi skolah, dat’s it…x kisah la ur sons or daughters dpt nombor corot ke, fail ke…it means nothing to u at all…it really breaks my heart to have parents yg hv those kind of thinking….especially young parents…

juz really hit my curiousity…how do u know U ARE READY?…or u actually nvr thing abt wat happen aftr marriage?…the responsibility of the family…i dont think i am…until today, if ade org masuk meminang, even if its my dearest bf (if i hv one)..i will say no…i juz cant picture myself as A MOTHER at age of 20!…to me, women should have education b4 getting married…education in da sense of knowing how to become a wife n future mother…my mom always told me that…tell me wat do u know abt being a mom at age 19?…xkan nak harap kat parents n parents in law…

Marriage is not abt SEX n HAPPY LIFE AS COUPLE…it means more than dat…u become attached to another new life n position…position dat only u can decide whether u wanna stay or u wanna leave…BIG RESPONSIBILITIES behind marriage…people said marriage is a ONE LIFE TIME COMMITMENT…u hope dat once u get married, it last forever…but when u get married juz based on the ‘happy life’ potrayed by other married people, u juz dont realise wat type of world u got urself into.

hillie 1203

hye all…how u guys doing?…mesti ade yg dah siap packing rite?…x sabar nak balik Miri…but i guess i’m da only 1 wit dat feeling…org lain prefer to stay at their house…i cant wait to go back Miri n face the future stress…hahaha…=P

well, i didnt know wat to write actually. Again, for wat number of times, i’m having a really despondent feeling. I HATE DAT FEELING…but it keeps on coming during the unwanted time. I really dont know how to deal wit it…da only thing i know, i need to make myself busy…when i’m busy, i nvr think abt stupid stuff…da MAIN reason why i wanna go back to Miri ASAP.

1 thing for sure, my boys are leaving me 1 by 1. I guess this IS the time…i hv to face the fact that NO ONE makes me happy…no one like my family…1st, my sayang pegi Perth…2nd, my baby is no longer my baby…he’s with sum1 else…wat realy makes me upset, he didnt even tell me abt it…he even change his number witout my acknowledgement…my wish come true akhirnye…he vanish…juz like dat…no longer wit me…no longer my friend…i really hope he dont even remember me at all…like i was never exist in his life b4…I REALLY WISH FOR DAT…

talking abt job, next monday is MY LAST DAY OF WORK!. yeay!…i love working over there…the people is so friendly…eventhough adela yg kerek sikit…as usual…sume tmpt ade kan…i guess, i miss the people dat lighting up my days =)

i juz cut my hair…hehehe…=D

still waiting for my last payment to go shopping…=D

I WANNA BE FEMINIST. RULE MY WORLD WITHOUT GUYS.

hillie 1203

hye all…how’s everyone going?..getting bored yg teruk kan?…believe me…i know how it feels…thank god coz i need to work time raya cina nnt…xdela boring sgt…well, talk abt dat…rase cm malas je nak g keje but bile pikir psl duit yg dpt…i’m so pump up man…hahahha…shopping x abis2 je =P

today, 1st February 2008…genapla umur adik aku 18 tahun…hahahaha…he is all grown up…taller than me…wiser than me…happy burfday Mohd Saifulhanif bin Abdul Halim…moga panjang umur n sentiase dimurahkan rezeki oleh Allah s.w.t….love u, always n forever =)

since adik aku dah besar ni…i start to feel left out…wanna know why?…coz i used to be part of his world…i remembered when he was a little kid, he doesnt wanna play wit any gurl except me…and then, he totally listened to every single of my instruction…he is really a stone headed person…watever he wants, he will get it…no matter wat…i remembered once he wanted a ‘Mc Fly’ shoe (to whoever watched Back To The Future Part II, there was a shoe wit light below the ankle worn by the main actor? that shoe)…wanna know wat abt dat shoe?…we found it n wanna buy it for Raya shopping if i wasnt mistaken…da worst part, he wanted da one on display!…my mom bg mcm2 alasan to him to buy a new pair…but he wanted da display shoe jgk…coz he doesnt trust da new pair will be as good as the display…hahahhaa…n then, there was a lorry bought by my dad at Kuantan…da lorry hv a contena body n its hard to open it…my dad suggest him to use spoon to open it…there was once, we met with the repectionist in the hotel lobby…she asked wat’s wit the spoon?…my bro told her dat my dad asked to used it to open the lorry body…hahhaha..dat guy, doesnt know how to cover up story la…so memalukan…our family doesnt own a car, so we used public transport n taxis to walk around…he hates ugly n old taxi…once my dad queued for a taxi n we got da old one…he cried like hell becoz he doesnt wanna to ride the old n ugly taxi…hmmmm…my brother…history of him =)

i told abt being left out rite?…hmmmm…i guess, i used to be really overprotective to him…he is my priority in any situation…i remembered once both of used went to agama school in da evening…he supposed to ride a same bus wit me…since his class finished b4 me, i assume he was already in da bus…when i reached da bus n look for him…he was not in there…i freaked like hell…told da bus driver to wait…looked 4 him all around da school compound…dah penat cari, juz tawakal n went back home…sampai je umah, i cried frm tangga bwh umah lg…my mom igt sumthing bad happen ka…i told her, i lost my bro…she asked me where did he go…i told her i didnt know…thank god he not da only 1 went missing dat day…few of his friends as well…checked on his friends…rupenye, they all took a different bus…he scared the hell of me…n once, he being attacked by his gastric…i thought he was going to die…he looks so pale…thank god ade dis one uncle help me…

die dah 18 today but i still treat him like he was a kid…kdg2 like i really want him to be my small brother again….so, i will worried less abt him…eventhough he looks like so tough, hati die quite sensitive…hope he gonna achieve watever he wants in his life…he will hv my support on everything dat he wants..i dont know when i can juz stop to protect him n face da fact dat he already big enough to take care of himself…i’m still his sister…his overprotective sister =)

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hillie 1203

wat would u feel if sum1 dat u love so much…said dat u never try to love dat person?…wat would u feel when u try so much to get dat person attention but dat person said u never try to win dat person’s heart?…wat would u feel when u do everything in ur power to make sure dat person proud of ur achievement but end up saying sumthing dat really hurt u?…wat would u do…

Hye all…how’s life everyone?..i know u guys dying wanna go back to Miri rite?..coz dah terlalu boring…wit nothing to do…if ade bf pun, dorg dah balik uni masing2…hehehe…me too…x sabar2 nak balik Miri…well, we juz gonna swallow up all our undesirable holiday =P

so, it’s been a long time since i updated my blog…actually i hv nothing to talk abt…today, juz gonna write sumthing on how i killed my boring day

well…i dated Hakim last 3 weeks n a guy named Zul last sunday…everything went well enough 4 me…wit Hakim, i watched National Tresure 2…nice movie tho…except too superfiction…x tercapai akal ape yg dorg buat tu…like does President of United States keep a secret book?…doesnt make any sense…but…overall, it was a fun movie to watch…wit Zul, juz chatted 4 da whole day…org baru kan…kena la kenal lbh sikit…=P

besides going out, my day is totally dedicated on my work…nothing else…but last week keje boring…coz my cayunk keje malam…havent seen him 4 1 week really killing me la…xde org nak mengade2…hahahha…at least, i’m going to see him tomorrow…cant wait at all…=)

today, genap 1 month Zarul x conctact me at all…i guess he’s moving on 4 gud dis time…hopefully die dijaga dgn baik by his new gf…if there is one…aku btl2 penat kali ni…i dont wanna do anything lg…biar jela…hope he’s doing good

well, most of my nite, i hangout wit my dudes…dorg blanje mkn, minum…nice eh…last sunday, hangout wit Alem n sum1 new…member Zarul jgk…Alem tu mulut die blh thn sbnrnye…missing him alot…he asked me a favor to buy a gift 4 his gf’s burfday…belikan teddy bear yellow in colour…comel sgt…

exactly frm today…ade 1 month b4 i going back to Miri…hopefully otak still functionable la…jgn jam sudah…next sem sbjt will be more disaster frm last…cant wait to meet u again, STRESS! =P

till next time…

XOXO…

hillie 1203

hye all…i hv time to blogging!…i’m lovin it…well, i dont think it’s too late to wish a Happy New Year to everyone rite?…Happy New Year…may u all have a new year ahead =)

well2…lets review my 2007 shall we?…let see wat hv i remembered abt 2007…

2007…i lost 5 kg wktu mid sem break…still dpt smbg Curtin Scholar for my 1st year degree…jd babysitter…lost 5 of my cats in 1 week…lost my ‘beloved’ grandma…ups n downs in studies…get to know mi novio, cayunk n sweetheart…spend a lot of time wit sayang in 1st sem n darling in 2nd sem…unpredictable relation wit baby…still holding my position kat dlm CIS (Sport, Arts & Culture)…took my fav subject as elective (20th Century World History)…be friends wit Wani, supposed to be enemy…

my life is wonderful during 2007…biasela..ade yg best, ade yg x.. but all of it was a journey dat teach me da meaning of life…i tresure every single moment of my life last year…totally love it…

2008 juz started…i dont have any new resolution this year….juz da same resolution every year n repeated…1st, wanna study hard n try my best to achieve excellent result…2nd, wanna be a better person…3rd, wanna make my family happy n proud of me…4th, wanna loose weight…standart thing huh…wanna plus 1 more this time…hope dat my love life is getting better…pening suda wit my love life skrg…hahahhaha…but i’m happy wit it =)

i juz cant wait on wat happen to me in 2008…hope all gud thing is there for me…wish all da bad things go away…with dat, i welcome myself n u guys to 2008…may God bless us throughout this year ahead

hillie 1203

XOXO

hye everyone!…miss u guys alot…to whoever read my blog…god!..i dont hv time to write a blog rite now…busy like US President…hahaha…bkn pe…balik keje dah penat…jrg online pun skrg ni…this blog is dedicated to my mom’s family…enjoy it…if u want to read it =)

last week, my work place dpt cuti 4 5 days…so, my mom decided to balik her hometown…supposed balik wktu raya haji lg coz i hv cousin yg kawin dat time…but, my ‘dearie’ grandma br je meninggal…x elok jgk juz runaway kan…so, we took my holiday time balik as a whole family la….

started on saturday evening, aftr my work abis…my bro called my mom, ckp my cousin yg keje kat putrajaya dtg umah…so, die kene memasak…dah boleh kawin dah die…hahahha…she didnt know our plan nak balik kmpg…my mom ajak but die cuti lama raya haji ari tu…so, x elok la kalo amik cuti kan…my uncle yg duduk kat Raub dtg umah amik my family coz we start our ‘tour De Pahang’ frm his house…lgpn, he works in KL n balik umah only on weekends…so, my mom…using her veto power as da only little sister in her siblings…suruh abg die amik…hahahha..now i know where i got my controlling behaviour frm…hehehehe….so, my Ayah Chu bwk kete smpi umah die around 1.30 am…Mak Chu dah siap bwk tilam 4 us to sleep…masuk umah je, i n my bro juz lay down n sleep…

next day, all dah bgn except me…my mom, dad n bro g beli sarapan cikit…Mak Chu masak nasi lemak…sedap…n u guys wanna see 1st thing i saw dat morning…dis da pic…

haahhaha…klakar x? tu la yg aku nmpk pg2 bute…itik…nothing weird abt da itik la…pas abis mkn at Ayah Chu’s house, sume org siap balik my late grandparents’ house…umah tu dah lame xde org duduk…x la scary sgt but dah semak jela…dis da pic…

i used to love dis house so much…bnyk kenangan kat umah ni…my mom siblings balik n lepak cni every time my family balik raya…still remember how my late grandfather smiled bile die tgk his grandchildren ramai2 kat dlm umah die n havoc da whole house…we went to my late grandparents’ grave aftr dat…my 1st time to dat particular grave…i saw my late grandma’s grave, i cried coz i nvr knew her b4…myb best kot kalo dpt kenal die…sure jd cucu kesygan…i’m a bit emo when i duduk kat my late granpa’s grave…tetibe je nangis non stop…i guess i miss him alot lately…especially last sem…even die dah meninggal like 8 years…

frm da grave, we went to Mak Chik’s house…Mak Chik’s husband is my mom’s bro…she used to live in da house shown b4 but skrg die dah pindah dah…tggl wit her stepmom n my cousin yg live near there…kitorg smpi je, we went to kolam ikan near da house…tgk my cousin’s husband tgkp ikan utk jual kat pasar tani on da next day….

malam tu…my dad plak memancing…he so crazy abt fishing…da hobby yg he share wit zarul’s dad actually…waited until 12 am 4 da fish tp xde pun…hahhahha…can tell by da face yg my dad was a bit upset…dgn kecekalan hati die, he got up early next day n memancing  by his own…hahhaha…so addicted…

aftr memancing, we went to my Ayah Busu’s n Ayah De’s houses…both umah ni kena n wajib pegi…hahhaha…dkt umah Ayah Busu mkn daging bakar…his son do it 4 us…kat umah Ayah De…mkn nasi…nice….mlm tu, pegi umah Ayah Ngah plak…umah ni wajib tido…Ayah Ngah now is da big brother of da family aftr i lost my Ayah Long 10 years ago…i cant sleep at his house becoz of my stupid cousin Anuar…scared me ckp ade hantu…xleh tdo lgsg…plus Mak Ngah pny jam dinding yg ade bunyi every 1 hour tu…scary abis…pkl 5 pg…Mak Ngah dtg n she saw me x tdo lg n menggigil sejuk..she selimutkan me…hahhaha…nice feelings…bgn on 7.30 am…teruskan our journey…to last house…Ayah Andak’s house at Kuantan…

At Ayah Andak’s house, kitorg mkn keropok lekor…igtkan nak pegi pantai coz umah tu dkt dgn pantai tp hujan plak ptg tu…next morning, balik KL bus pkl 11.30 am…

dat’s da end of Tour De Pahang…

i love every single moment of it =)

hye guys…miss blogging!…n miss each n every single person dat read my blog…hahhahahha…as if sum1 reading it….hehehhee..how’s holiday so far?…been gud?..boring?…mine plus minus everything…some gud, some bad…some sad as well…here’s da follow up….

been busy wit work lately…simple work yet boring n tiring…look at da same piece of shit more than 1000 times in a day….da most pieces i saw was 14000 over 4 9 hours of working time…god!…my head goes dizzy everyday…but, when i think abt da money n the easy work….u will forgot ur worst enemy…hahahha…dat’s all abt work…

last saturday, i lost my one n only grandma i have for my entire life…wat i feel u asked?…none…same feeling when i lost my grandpa 2 years ago…it’s not like i dont love them but i hate da way they treat my mom…dat’s all…i know they hated my mom so much 4 stupid reason if u ask me….nah!…let’s get it over…they already passed away…whatever i say doesnt make much different pun…a bit sad on my side becoz i dont hang around n chat wit my late grandma…which i usually do everytime i went back home…i’m juz not in da mood dis time i guess…i got to bath her 4 da last time…do every nessecery things dat a grandchild should do 4 da last time…may she rest in peace wit org yg beriman…

well, another gone wit be frm zarul dat said ‘i dont love u anymore as a gf’…i dont know wat to say anymore…aftr trying hard to make him comeback to me…i guess he is not mine aftr all….mek lelah tek…last thing he said, ‘u know my principe’…dat’s explain all abt my relation wit him…talk abt cruelity…i need him to abandon me…coz i cant leave him…if he leaves me…i guess i cant do anything…i dont have a choice…i tried to be his friend but sumtymes my pride n love takes control of me coz i still own him …i became angry n jelousy when i know dat he gets close to other gurls besides me…i had tolerant dat wit wani…i dont think i be able to go through it anymore…i dont wanna loose him as a friend…but if it’s da only way to make sure he happy n me as well, i will do it…god!…why makes my love life so difficult?…

average story…my result…i’m happy 4 everything except my mechanics…stupid…i got 60 for dat subject…80 for my math, 81 for material n 88 for EFPC…well enough 4 a bridge dat doesnt meet the requirement…hahhahaha..overall, my pointer 3.425….sad…my target is 3.7…huhuhuhuh…need to really work hard next sem…i think i’ve been saying dat 4 thousands times…still…effort is important….

well, talk abt being bitchy…i do say dat i’m a bitch rite now….hahhahah…wanna know why?…i flirt wit a guy dat already hv gf…wow!…dat’s da 1st i guess…i called him ‘cayunk’…not dat he replace nas’s place…da main reason why da spelling is different…nasri is my ’sayang’…always was n always be…his name is fizi…dat’s by far da u guys will know abt him…i dont think i’m insane enough rite now…saying myself a bitch…but wat da fuck…

hmmm…on the other hobby, i juz bought a pair of new vincci…i would say dat i look sexy in dat heels…hahahhaha…no 1 will say dat, so i juz say it myself…n sum new accessories…spend around RM100 of my 1st ever salary…hahhaha…my dad dah bising gile…i need to pay him RM500 each month 4 my flight ticket…’learn to buy ur own stuff using ur own money’, my dad said…mcm la die x kenal anak perempuan die ni…pelik btl bapak aku tu…i wont get 500 bucks to give him each month…rather spend on shopping n topup 4 god sake….n eating of coz…still…it’s a need…so under my dad’s budget la…hahhahaha…

okie folks…that’s all 4 now…

will update next time…

c u guys n gurls in Curtin next sem…

hillie 1203

XOXO

hye all…sorry coz dah lame x update blog…been busy wit working lately…penat sgt…balik umah ptg…mlm around 11 dah tdo…penat gile even kejenye senang sgt…tp i’m cool wit it…coz mggu ni dah dpt gaji…hahahhaha

okie…back to da title….me n my primary school friends had our reunion last nite….gile gempak abis la…well, it wont be dat great if it was not 4 me n some others friends…we hunted down sume member lame…even x dpt sume org pun, i still puas hati dgn reunion kali ni….usually, da reunion was done in my house during hari raya…tp kali ni, raya pun x balik…xde org nak follow up…so, my duty la to make sure it happens….

1st thing done was contact ever single person yg ade since wednesday…it was like a really long time ago i contact every single of them…puas hati rase…i set da date, time n place…i thought yg dtg sikit je…turns out like around 20 peoples yg shown up…hancur KFC mlm tu…we all havoc habis…org sume pandang je but kitorg buat bodoh gile….nice time …pstu pic time…tgkp gmbr bagai nak rak gile…x kisah lighting pun, asl ade gmbr…pstu, some of us balik dulu but most of us remain there…bukak cerita lame…Ben suggest pegi lpk tmpt lain…igtkan g mamak…last2 g McD…hahhahaha…McD pun hancur jgk kitorg kejekan…like hell habis…sume cite lame, cite baru, cerita yg bkl keluar…sume ade….syok abis…dah lame x hangout cmtu skali…i hope i still can manage dis reunion on da coming holiday…

Faiq, Fadzrel, me, Iskandar, Adhwa, Dinash, Sufi, Zayid, Fadhil, Arif, Azman, Dayang, Ain, Tazkiah, Iqbal, Faiz (not in da pic).

Faiq - lupe nak tny die kat mane skr…sorry bro…;-)

Fadzrel - UiTM Penang, Chemical Engineering

Iskandar - Engineer in Training at MAS Airport

Adhwa - UTP, Computer Science

Dinash - UTP, Computer Science

Sufi - UiTM Seri Iskandar, Accountancy

Zayid - UiTM Melaka, Bussiness Admin

Fadhil - UIA, Accountancy

Arif - UiTM PJ, Lab Science

Azman - UiTM Segamat, lupe course….hehehhehe

Dayang - x igt kat mane, Bussiness Admin

Ain - Baru abis STPM

Tazkiah - UiTM Segamat, Accountancy

Iqbal - Twintech, Mechanical Engineering

Faiz - UiTM Segamat, Bussiness Admin

Thanx 4 da GREATEST UNION ever….kite buat lagi next cuti k….heart every single of u guys dearly….love u guys alot…XOXO