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hye everyone…happy holidays!…cant believe we’re in holidays aftr dozens of assignments, works, exams n of coz dramas!…hahahhah…well…everythings end up well huh 4 dis sem…the closure of 2007…nice n happening…

well, break time…hope i hv lots of things to do…still done nothing at home until today, besides eating, sleeping n chatting wit my bro until 3 am…i miss my bro so much…my other half…cant imagine my life witout him if he goes to German next 2 years….

dis time flight is da worst case 4 me…started wit da fact dat i’ve been punk’d by khadab n fariq…siot btl bdk2 tu…they know dat i’ll go panic if anything happen…take advantage of me huh…nvr mind…last time joke rite?..da flight was full on dat day…rase mcm naik bus la plak…as usual, i get da window seat…nice view…besides me, a lady n her husband…frm Miri…she’s a gud lady…keje kat jabatan kesihatan miri…hope to c her again if i go to miri again….hmmmmm…speaking of dat part, i still donno wat’s my chance of going back…will update to u guys later k…arrived in KLIA…my mom n my bro picked me up…my mom, she’s so thin…working too much i guess…my bro, bought his new shoes n showing it off to me…as always…to my friends yg jmpe my bro….sorry…die tu mmg kurang sikit bab2 socialize ni….too much pride n ego in him…xtau genetic sape die amik….hmmmm…aftr dat, when back home naik bus…journey dat should take me 3 hours to complete been lessen to 1 n half hours…my luck i guess…the bus should go to KL but instead it took the unusual route n kebetulan dat route is near to my house….bus stop at traffic light, we went down n walk abt 2 km to my house….unbelievable…br je baik, dah kena start jalan kaki…but a nice feeling tho…coz dah lame x jln dgn family…people pelik nape i prefer walking to n back frm yummy2…coz it reminds me of my routine…3 km walking every week to my tuition center…love da feelings of freedom when walking…of coz…most of u cant understand it coz u guys dont live ur life like mine….hv my family dinner…went back home…rest abit…my grandma condition is getting worst…meracau2…x sedar wat happen around her…wish she could die fast…becoz i hate her n to let her not feel da pain anymore…cian sgt…but she doesnt realize dat…susah nak ckp dgn die…dah la pekak, plus sakit…mengade2 lebey…geram btl…texted Fairous dat nite…she wanted to meet me on Tuesday…called Zarul dat nite…been missing him alot lately…i hate dat feelings…i’ll end up fighting wit him….sleep nice n sound around 2 am…

Tuesday…Zarul called me on 9 am…told dat he wanted to come by to my house…to change hp….he has been dragging me abt changing hp 4 da past 2 months…god!…he came wit Qayum of coz…still charming as always…he da only person everytime i met him, i get butterfly in my stomach….seriously…i dont know why….da same feeling everytime….i feel shy everytime i look into his eyes…he realizes dat i guess…chat abit wit him n Qayum b4 they need to go back to work…i met Fairous in da evening….around 2 pm, she came by to my house….upload a couple of songs into her hp…chat abt Zarul n Qayum…da only person i trusted da most…we shared alot of stories…old stories…repeated stories…in different version….well…we always in love wit our ex bf…dats 4 sure…how strong da feelings still…cant tell…sumtimes hard enough, sumtimes we juz dont care anymore….she’s going to Gombak…further her studies there in UIA…wish to go out wit her nnt…shopping shoes…both of us loooovvvveee shoes so much…dat nite, my twin sms…abt my usjian friends get together…will be on thursday…cant wait 4 it…

Wednesday…nothing much besides hearing my granda called like 1000 times but i didnt answer her at all….malas mek…end up laying on my bed until 4 pm…got msg frm Ben, my old friend…havent meet him like 3 years i guess…his team wanted a bsktball fight wit my team…da match on sunday….updated later k…

well, basically dat all for starter of my holidays…btw, i’ll start working on 1 December…so, its kind of hard 4 me to take vacation but i’ll try k…wanna follow u guys 4 holiday dis time…hopefully i can….hehehhhe

dats all for now….

more to come….

hille 1203

Hye all…i guess our final days together has come aite?..most of u guys will be flying to ur home town starting frm tomorrow…i guess dis will be our last meeting la…hope i get to be here next sem…hope to see u guys again…but…

anyway, yesterday makan2 was a blast…i love da foods…superb n delicious…i had my fun time over there…to sekam, sorry coz kutuk ur song…but seriously, lagu ko cam org heart-broken abis seyh…nvr mind…it heals later on…i’ve been there n done dat…chill k…gapam…kate secret remains secret…hampeh btl ko…xpe2…sum day, ur secret will be out n i’m not gonna do a thing abt it…hahahhaha….

i guess my speech yesterday said everything dat i wanna said….really gonna miss every single one of u….thanx 4 being there for me all these while…thanx 4 da support…thanx 4 everything

u guys have my word…i will make sure that i come back for my next semester…juz pray for me aite….help me going through my probs…love u guys alot….

till next semester…

-hillie 1203-

hye all…i suppose everyone cant wait 4 da holidays to start huh?..mine already started last thursday but i dont feel like i’m on my holiday mood…hv few things to settle n dramas to stop…i dont feel good lately…but wat the hack?..no one cares abt me…i start to take my pills again…dis time things get really worst than i expect…

juz wanna said i had a great time last saturday…to whoever knows wat happen last saturday, i know all of us share the great moments aite?…attacking people…crushed them down wit words n pictures….i had a real fun dat nite…gossiping…nvr knew guys gud at it…better then gurls actually….all of u on dat nite…sedut, chendoy, khadab, syabil, fariq, gapam, ariff, darling, aswad, chong senior, sweetheart, dearest finnie and our master that nite, haziq…u guys will always have a special place in my heart…each n everyone of u is my dearest true friend…friend that i would not trade wit anything in dis world….

to whoever may concern…i will have the possibility of not continue my studies here…due to the unwanted factor of all…rite now, i should say 70/30…but then again…wat the hack..no one care abt me…i guess ppl feels gud i’m not around…i create misery to others…

i, siti nor rahilah binti abdul halim…have given up on all my problems n dramas…hope u guys enjoy when i’m not around anymore…thanx to all who i love n loves me back…heart u ppl alot…whoever i love but dont love me back, wanna say thanx as well…u teach me to be in the real world…world of rejection of love..i do wanna apologise on every single mistake dat i’ve done intentionally or unintentionally…till we meet again..

hillie 1203

-the end of me-

hye everyone…it’s been a while since my last blog…huhuhuhu…been busy wit finals…which already ended yesterday morning…huh…let go of everything that i’ve learn for 4 months…to my fellow friends who still fighting for finals, all the best 2 u guys..

i dont have a topic to discuss dis time…juz a random thoughts…forgive me if i drag my blog dis time….dont read if u dont want too…

i’m sick enough of being middle person….either in relationship or friendship….i dont know why ppl bother telling my their problems…i’m not a saint…i can only think n give opinion…n relate it to my life if ade kena mengena….huh…dont blame me if u get fired back…its not my problem…i juz listen n talk…

being wit larry for past few days is da best coz i can concentrate on my studies….which i rarely get it lately due to my stupid dramas…shit happens in my life but this is da worst drama i’ve been involved….cut the crap out of me…my fucked up life…which is wonderful actually…i get to learn more abt homo sapien…lots of them…different characteristic…unpredictable…doing shits n dont realise dat da shit hurts other ppl…what the fuck!…get a life bitch!…dont interupt mine…u r not in my league…go to hell wit ur cute face…bimbo!

hillie 1203