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Well….i feel i like i never write since ages!….ok….lets start again…

i already entered da year 2007. as every year coming, i have my resolution which never in my life, i’ve completed it….well…exception on studies of coz…it is a must do thing…

but this year…i make a promise to myself that i will never fall in love again….it hurts so much…n the impact to my life is so big until there’s a time when i juz wanna kill myself coz i cant take it anymore….u must b thinking i’m crazy juz to kill myself for love…tell u da truth…that’s wat i felt…until i realize that if i kill myself, i kill a chance for me to live in this world…a world that change n thought me how to live…i wanna live for more…

until now…i still cant get over him…seriously…although i knew he has a new gurl…but he has no right to ask me to stop loving him…i always have that feeling for him n will forever feel that way…but i have to go on with my life n i will not waste my life for him…my housemates is there for me n i thank them for that…they care about how i feel….love them for that….

i juz hope that when i return to miri on 3rd of march, it will be a new me…me with much more joy n happiness…i dont want to be the sad me anymore…i know its hard but i’m going to give it a shot…i juz wanna concentrate on my studies n live my life to da fullest…

last 3 day, my mom gave me a knitted doll for my future birthday persent…i know it sound childish but she said that she see me in that doll…a happy me…i cried when i receive that doll from her…my mom is always be my inspiration to work harder on anything…wat’s make me sad the most is thinking that when she was in my age, she no longer have a mom…but i still have her here with me…although she cant stop nagging n yelling at me…i cant see how i’m gonna live my life without it…she’s nag coz she loves me…all along…i’m thankful to have her in my life…

my only focus this time is being myslef again n my studies…that’s all that matters to me rite now…i hape i can achieve that this year…

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